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Experience Gained, Money Lost

Is it worth spending money in the real world for something in a virtual one? If you answered yes, then I guess there’s something we’re no longer going to agree on.

See, I’ve been playing Dragon Nest for quite some time now, and I thought it’s due time for me to actually spend on my game so that I could at least look cool while adventuring, so I went to Netopia and bought Php350 worth of CC points, which is equivalent to 10000 points, all so that I could buy the limited edition sword for 6900 points and then use the remaining points on things I’d fancy buying later on. But when I was already buying whatever I was going to buy, I realized that I had already been victimized by false advertising and the 10000 points I got on my account meant absolutely nothing.

Apparently, the sword isn’t just 6900, well, the 7-day version is, but not the permanent one, because that costs more than 10000 points, and I’m never going to be willing to buy a sword that would poof away after a week using real money nor spend more than Php350 on a virtual sword in a game that I do not intend to play forever. And with that, since I already punched in the damn points into my account and it’d be more of a waste if I didn’t use it, I just bought a crappy hat for 6800 points because it’s the only decent thing I could buy with what I had and then used the remaining points to buy Altea’s boxes, an item that would give off a random item when used.

In the end, I blew good money that could’ve been used on so many more worthwhile things on virtual crap. I mean, with Php350, I can already buy a movie ticket and a few snacks, two Starbucks frappes, ten pirated DVDs, two discounted mangas, or a novel - things that I get to keep until the end, unlike virtual items which has no use in real life, poof away after a limited time, or become forgotten along with the game it is in when you no longer play.

Oh well, experience gained, money lost.

Dirty Money, Mercenary, Purgatory

At first, it was everything I ever wanted - a venue I can spend my time on instead of wasting it, an opportunity to widen my circles and horizons, and perhaps secretly yet most importantly - gain financial independence. And when I thought things couldn’t get any better, I began weaving bonds with my team members. No longer are they just mere coworkers I have to interact with for survival’s sake - they have become friends who shared their lives with me and my life with theirs. It was a comfortable haven that allows me to make dough, use my time for more productive reasons, and be with awesome and genuine people. Too good to be true, right? Well, it is. The friendship is good, the work is good, but the work is not. 

You know those works of fiction where the protagonist is a member of a big-ass organization whose intent is superficially benevolent yet a little shady, the protagonist agent starts smelling something fishy with the organization he works for, so the protagonist decides to snoop around to uncover the truth, only to have the suspicions confirmed, so the protagonist goes rogue and rebels against the very organization that he/she had high esteems of, the very organization that honed him/her - that’s what my life feels like right now. It made me an agent, it fed me with rewards, it gave me a rocking time. Then they expected more from me, but I could not deliver, so I resorted to the dirty tricks my fellow agents have taught me, but it was wrong and was not worth the risk of getting caught, so I did not do so. But when they accuse me of a crime I did not commit, coupled by the fact that I’m already at risk for termination because I could not fulfill their impossible demands - that was the last straw. I have lost all my faith with their system, it’s due time that I left. 

I have unearthed their conspiracy - the impossible metrics that they came up with is designed to cause agents to fail or risk cheating to succeed and get caught, which both result to termination. Question is - why would an employer purposely lay off its agents? Well, simple - that’s because every six months, we are to get a performance appraisal, which could either lead to a longer stay and Php1000 if you’re good, and you get either probation or outright termination if you’re not that good or have been doing forbidden techniques to pull up your metrics. And with a profit-oriented management, it’s quite expected that they’d rather cut costs instead of keeping their agents. All they need do is train you for a month, make you work under a contract without any secure promise of permanence, gauge you using unattainable stats, and discard you when you have outlived your usefulness. And since newbies get hired on a daily basis and enter production on a weekly one, it’s child’s play for the management to outpace the rate of termination, perpetuating operation without pause. That is their filthy and nefarious scheme.

Those who work earnestly or leave a trace of dirty work are banished, while those whose tricks remain undetected are kept, or even rewarded. And if the agents are rewarded by the client, so are the supervisors, and the account managers as well by the client. It’s filthy money, and I could no longer stomach how unfair the system is. I, who refuse to manipulate my metrics, note everything that has transpired, render true and honest customer service, am at risk for termination, while those who stealthily employ underhand tactics survive or even thrive…NO MORE, I CAN’T TAKE THIS!

I couldn’t really blame other agents for doing what they do in order to stay, for I understand that they need to keep the work. But as for me, I just don’t see myself  in this line of dirty work, so I’ll just do things my way - the clean and legit way, and I don’t give a damn if the management discards me anytime soon, as long as I have a clear conscience. Besides, I no longer want the work anyway in the first place - assisting dumb, abusive, and greedy customers for eight hours a day, listening to their unreasonable and impossible requests and complaints, absorbing their rage. And I don’t need all that.

I don’t mean to sound like I’m arrogant enough to say no to money, and even though they’re paying me a lot considering that the job is routinely easy, it’s still not worth it because of how we are viewed and treated by the customers, the client (the account holder), and the management. To them, we’re just mercenaries who get paid to do our work, nothing more and nothing less. But not me, for I want something more and different. I want a work that promises me permanence and growth, a work where I’m considered an integral part of a force, not an expendable gear. And I guess it’s not the call center. 

Soon enough I’ll be spitted out by the purgatory called work, forced to scour the limbo of unemployment once again for a new life. But whatever I’ve learned and the friends that I’ve gained in that penitential plane of call center life, I’ll never forget them and carry them with me forever. And its demons that play king to the souls their realm traps, well, their time shall end. Not anytime soon perhaps, and nor by my hand, but it will end. 

Mercenary Work Part 1: In This Life

“It’s not about the money, money, money”

-Jessie J, Price Tag

It’s been many months now, and I’m still unemployed. No job, no money, no productivity. Not that I need money to live because I’m still dependent to my folks for food, clothing, and shelter, but I need it for whatever fun activities, and it’s a little embarrassing to ask them cash for such reasons, but I do so anyway. Still, it would be quite nifty to have some money for myself in case I want to buy or do something or go somewhere without having to ask them so that I would be a little bit more unaffected by their authority, and it would be pretty refreshing to break the everyday mold of waking up, eating, and facing the PC and TV. So for the time being, I’ve been doing simple random for the sake of money, like a mercenary.

Job 1: Research Assistant

During the last two weeks of January, I was hired by Tita Beh, a church friend, as a research assistant. I was tasked to get certain data from the Department of Education and Commission on Audit, and I was paid Php2000, which I instantly blew off. I’ll be paid another Php3000 after my final mission with her - to go to Cabanatuan and Muñoz in Pampanga and conduct an interview. And honestly, I like it because it’s somewhat of an adventure - go places I’ve never been, see the sights, meet new people - honestly, the money is secondary to the idea of temporarily disrupting a repetitive cycle.

Job 2: Encoder

Of all the people who would hire my services, it had to be Alice. And I couldn’t refuse, not because of the money, but because it’s Alice. Heck, I could’ve done it for free because it’s Alice, but she insisted to pay me, so I took the Php500. The job took two days, which should’ve been one, and I feel ashamed to her because I’m such an incompetent fool, and now she’s telling me that she’ll be giving me additional payment because I worked for two days…now I’m more ashamed!

I’ve already told her so many times that I don’t mind her not paying me, but damn it, she’s adamant about it. I mean, if I worked for her for free, then maybe she’d be like “James is such a kind person who doesn’t care about the money, I might actually like him”. Then again, having money is a good thing, but I might get merc-zoned because I took it - GAH I’M TORN BETWEEN TWO LOVES!

Then again, the thought of an employer-employee romance is pretty…promising, just like in seinen mangas…wait that’s not good, DAMN I’VE BEEN READING TOO MUCH SEINEN!!! Yeah, well, considering what couples do in seinen mangas, it’s just not right…not that I want to do it with her, I do…but those things are far too unholy for a pristine being like Alice. But still, I wanna take her on dates, watch movies, play at the arcade, you know, sweet nothings like that, and then the seinen stuff could wait. 

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